And now a word from my sensitive side.

Please don't tell anyone I have one. As far as you are concerned, I am a BITCH! (Babe in Total Control of Herself)So, here it is, my sensitive side presents:

BEFORE I WAS A MOM

Before I was a Mom, I slept as late as I wanted and never worried about how late I got into bed.

I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.
Before I was a Mom

I cleaned my house each day.

I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.

I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.

I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom I had never been puked on.

Pooped on. Spit on.

Chewed on.

Peed on.

I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.

I slept all night.



Before I was a Mom

I never held down a screaming child so that doctors could do tests.

Or give shots.

I never looked into teary eyes and cried.

I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.

I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.



Before I was a Mom

I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put it down.

I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt.

I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.

I never knew that I could love someone so much.

I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom

I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.

I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.

I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.

I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom

I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.

I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.

I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom.



And before I was a Grandma (I'm not a grandma but it's part of the essay so bear with me)

I didn't know that all those "Mom" feelings more than doubled!

My cynical side sez:
Before I was a mom, I had trim hips and thighs.
Before I was a mom, I still didn't sleep all night because I was out.
Before I was a mom...ah forget it! SHHHH...I wouldn't trade them for anything but don't let them know that.