It's hot!
Chicago is known for its volatile weather patterns. Two weeks ago, I heard lots grumbling that it was cold and wet. Then a warm front came through and it is now 94% with at least 85% humidity. This has tossed a crimp in my walking schedule. I have never been much of an excerciser and it's not that I don't like it. I just can't stand the feeling of being sweaty. I have tried to refocus. Sweating is detoxifying. The whole purpose of a sauna, and we have a natural one outside now, is to sweat away toxins and rejuvenate. My re-focus didn't quite work as I had hoped but I did go out and subject myself to the torture and because I was feeling I needed a little additional punishment, I brought Emily along. My thinking was, Emily is hyperactive. What better way to burn off all that energy that take her on a nice walk. Well that blew up in my face. Emily walked a block and then she was complaining she was tired. She plopped down in the middle of the sidewalk and refused to budge. I walked on. She caught up eventually. In true ADHD fashion, her brain was all over the map. See mom, I"m walking..oh hey, is that a dandylion? RUN RUN TO CATCH UP TO MOM.. OH LOOK! CLOVER!! I'm HOT! I'm thirsty! I wanna go home! I don't wanna go home! YOu're walking too fast! You're walking too slow!! .......Sigh... I will leave Emily home unless it's a walk to the park. Today, as it's close to a 100 degrees with the heat index, I'm postponing my walk until sundown. I blew it off all together yesterday and feel a leeeeetle guilty. But uck! IT was just plain sauna-ish out there and I did not have the luxury of time for a shower after I sweat profusely.

CT scan tomorrow.. BLECH!!! Will it be good news? Can I go three months and remain stable while on the placebo? I sure hope so. I don't feel any worse than I did 6 weeks ago. I even feel a little better with more energy when I'm not tired from all the late nights working I've put in lately. But, I'm still nervous. I hate scanxiety. Results on Wednesday. In the meantime, I'll enjoy a nice weekend and enjoy my days in The Matrix.