Has it been two months?

Holy Cow! Time sure flies and what a summer it's been and in spots...not in a very good way. I have come to a realization and I think most of my friends can attest to this. Ready? I make really bad choices when it comes to men..Yup folks...IT'S ABSOLUTELY TRUE! I know! I know! A definite shocker there! That's all I'm going to say. Unfortunately, all my bad choices have decided to come out of the woodwork this summer to bother me and remind me why it is that they are EX's. My ex husband came out of nowhere, after a 2 year disappearing act and decided that it was perfectly in his right to demand to see his kids. What in the world has he been smoking? Well, nevermind..probably what he just got of jail for smoking and selling. Yup, my ex husband dealt drugs to teenagers. What a guy! But, he said if they only just legalized drugs, he wouldn't have had to go to jail in the first place. How in the world do you argue with perverse and twisted logic like that? Nope! He wasn't wrong. The law is. Typical him. And of course I told him which bus he can be under. To which he replied that his kids are the key to his "recovery" as if it's their responsibility to take care of him. No..no..no.. I reminded him as a parent that it is his reponsibility to take of THEM, which means hit the recovery wagon hard because the door is closed until then. Am I wrong? No, I don't think so.

Why is it that the people in my kids life that go out of their way for them, take care of them and love them the most have no legal rights? I think there is something really wrong sometimes with the way the law looks at what is in the best interests of the children? My children have gotten very little from the men that provided half their DNA. They have gotten abandoned, pushed aside, or ignored. Not Emmie's dad..not Kris and Cass's dad have ever and I mean EVER put their own personal needs aside to worry about the kids needs and the way they have treated me in the process is so unforgiveable. I am these kids mom. This is their home. This is where they are supposed to feel safe and secure and loved and these men don't feel that I deserve a bit of respect for all that I have done here. Neither DNA donor has a home or is in any financial position to maintain one. So, while each has gone on to worry about THEMSELVES, I have been left without financial or emotional support to worry about the kids. These men are what the law has decided to be in the best interests of the children, not the grandparents, not the aunts, uncles, friends and even acquaintances that have given them more time, more attention and more love. I don't see any value add in letting either of them disrupt and disrespect my house and by God I can't stand to see my kids in any more pain because they have terrible fathers. End of rant! What's even more awful is, it's my fault for choosing these horrible people to date in the first place. And yes, they are horrible and I am sick to death of the millions of excuses I have heard for their behavior. OH..he's just young. Oh he's just confused. Oh, he's trying to recover.. Please give him a break. They are responsible for themselves. PERIOD. Didn't I say it was the end? oops..so sorry. Too heavy for a Sunday morning. Why doesn't the court look at these things? Why do they just look at the genetic profile? He's the dad he's the best for the kids. I know that isn't true. Read the papers, please. Every day is a testament to the horrible things parents can inflict on their children.

Have a really great day everyone...and if someone can please provide me an answer as to why this is... please let me know.